UPDATE – I am changing the focus of this blog to be more inclusive of things of interest, things that pass through my mind and reflections, hopes, frustrations and just getting through the day. I want this to be a positive place, but as we all know, it is often easier said than done. I thank those of you who have been with me since the beginning, welcome those who have just come across it and hope that someone somewhere will be helped by what I’ve written about my experiences. This is a place of learning and growing, living and loving, trying and failing and trying again. I hope you will enjoy my ramblings and points of view.
I was diagnosed with Bipolar I disorder in my mid-20’s. I have had at least 5 major manic episodes with more than a dozen depressed episodes. I voluntarily sought hospitalization when my manic episode turned ugly and I was more than a little suicidal. Thankfully, that was the only time I had to be hospitalized.
I decided after a lifetime of substance and alcohol addiction to try another way; sober and present. I went through a program first with dual diagnosis (substance abuse and mental health diagnosis) before I got stabilized enough to really tackle my recovery. I am now over 220 days sober and feel strongly that it has helped to calm my mind and steady my moods.
I am writing this blog for me, as therapy and in the hopes that I will be able to help someone else through my writings. Most of all, I want to share my belief that there is hope for all those who suffer from bipolar disorder, depression, substance abuse or just a general feeling of hopelessness. If I had given up when I wanted to, I would have missed out on so many good times shared with wonderful people and moments that I realized I am relevant and I have already made a difference.
Thank you for stopping by and taking the time to read. I hope you will continue to follow me as I find my way